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If Want to Be My Beta Reader, This is Where to Start
Mickey Picayune
October 25, 2019
I’m in between things. My third draft of the most recent novel is complete. I’ve started (400 words) the next novel. I’ve started some changes to my website, but haven’t completed them. I’m also going to change my email system from Mailchimp to SendFox.
In a sense, I’m always in between things because I always have a lot of writing projects going on. I don’t have 17 books I want to write and then I’ll be done. It doesn’t work that way.
I’m accustomed to being in between things. It’s absolutely necessary for my peace of mind. I’m finding tranquility in the chaos of creation.
That chaos used to be a serious problem for me because of anxiety attacks.
In kindergarten and through first grade, I would cry when it rained. (I cried about a lot of things in kindergarten, but rain was a big one for me.) I finally got over that, but would panic whenever I was late.
If I got a late start to school, I would sweat and cry. I would make my mother late for work, begging for a ride, so that I wouldn’t be quite as late.
I practiced being calm to control these feelings. I didn’t understand that the triggers would set off negative feedback…
